Essays written by Illinois university killer describe alienation

DEKALB, Ill. (AP) — Graduate school application essays written by a man who fatally shot five students and wounded 18 other people in a Northern Illinois University classroom before committing suicide portray a young person who felt profoundly lost.

In four essays the Chicago Tribune obtained from the University of Illinois and NIU, Steven Kazmierczak discussed feeling alienated and his parents’ decision to send him to a group home.

“For as long as I can remember, I have always been an extremely sensitive individual and feel as though I am able to empathize with other people’s emotional and social needs,” Kazmierczak wrote. “However, some of my peers were not very understanding or accepting, and I feel as though I was victimized to a certain degree during my adolescent years.”

That victimization, he explained in an application to the University of Illinois School of Social Work, came from overwhelming social pressures.

“In hindsight, I feel that this was largely a result of the sensitivity that I often exhibited toward other classmates which was not necessarily accepted by others,” Kazmierczak wrote.

Kazmierczak, 27, burst into an auditorium on Valentine’s Day, carrying at least four guns, and fired dozens of shots in a geology class.

Authorities still don’t know why he targeted the class.