Dad,

Dad,
You failed me for my whole life. You're a good man but not a good father. [Expletive] it! I love you and the family. Please, let my son know I loved him with all my heart.
Your son, Marty
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Tracy,
Out of all people I have to apologize to you. Im not sorry for who I am or what I've done but I am sorry for breaking your heart. You mean the world to me sis. You always did. We have a sibling's bond that no one understands. I love you Tracy. I mean that with all my heart. I broke Mom's heart too but she's tougher then you. Mom been threw a lot. I truly understand her callousness. I adore Mom like you would never believe.
I'm in Florida trying to figure out what I should do now. I'm going to stay here a few days and then departure. I wanna call you so badly. Damn this sucks. But I'm happy ... I'm free! I hate the system. No way in hell am I going to allow them to lock me the [expletive] back up. I'm better then that. No 2 c/o's (correction officers) per block are going to tell me to mop any floors. I feel no guilt. (Only despair) when it comes to civility. That 6 years really [expletive] my head up. Not to mention my x-wife. I hate her. She should get on her knees and thank (whoever) God that I don't assaininate her for her transgressions. I'll hate her to my grave. Nothing was more satisfying (other then the other nite). Then punching her in the face. I hate her. I HATE HER.
I'll give you the truth Tracy. I shot a [black man]. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. I really did. I was talking to one of my soldiers. This [black man] walks up and asks if he's OK. I took it personal. So I said don't worry about it. The [black man] walked back in the bar at me so I walked him outside with a gun to his stomach. We get outside and my soldiers were telling me he's cool. So I apologized, put the gun away. He then took kindness for weakness and threatened me that I better use it. So I pulled it out and said (Goodbye). Shot him in the chest. I thought I shot him in the heart. (True intentions).
He started crying and ran in the bar yelling (He shot me). Everyone ran. I got in my car and left to a friends. The same guy I was talking too earlier set me up and gave me his keys to his car to leave town. Cop kept [expletive] with me riding my ass going downtown. So I pulled over got out of the car and blew his head off (I'm not going back). I laid in weeds freezing my ass off for hours hiding due to a police chase. 50 cops were around me but couldn't find me. I was under their nose the whole time. Survival!I feel no guilt. Only remorse that my life has to end so short. But I hate society. Laws. life. I have unfinished business to attend. I will take care of it and then give up my ghost. Ha. Ha. Ha. I don't mind. But no I truly love you. There will be more bloodshed. But not the family.
Try to get Rocky. I'm traveling America.
Love,Marty
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Mom,
Its not your fault. I hate. That's the bottom line. I hate everyone including myself. I'm sorry I let you down. I don't feel nothing. I hate [black people]. I hate everyone. I don't care if I die. I hate life! But I have the utmost respect for you.
Love,
Marty
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Rocky,
I'm sorry I let you down. I'm sorry I am what I am. I wanted to be with you. I really wanted to raise you to be a good man. You have so much good in you. You're such a good young man. I love you Rocky. I'm not sorry for what I did. I'm a hateful person. I was raised in an abusive living. I was beat constantly. My hate derives from abuse. I hate. I'm sorry I failed you as a father. I love you. You are always my heart. I will always live inside of you. I'm in your blood. I love you, Rocky. I love you.
Dad
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Bonnie,
We had our differences. I will hate you until my death and even past that. I hate life. You were so right at one time. Life sucks. We all go on. Please take good care of Rocky. Don't ever down me for anything in front of him. I might of been a horrible husband but as a father, I always tried my best to be all I could be. I'm sorry I let you down, too.
Love,Marty
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Bonnie,
I hate you. I will go to hell hating you. You [expletive] me over for the last time. I have .....